You see. Its only 1 a.m and I'm already crying, I just told the one I love with basically all my heart and then some that I can't deal with this anymore. What does claimed mean anyways? First time I heard that I was like, is that a twisted way of being back together? Silly me actually thought that. How dare me. So I said thats the end of that. Now I said that I need to be the bigger person, and just move on, we can't just love each other, not date, but talk to other people. How is that fair? So maybe it will be easier for him to get what he wants if loving me isn't an option anymore. I love him so much, but I need him happy. The only reason I said that to him, is so he will actually have the guts to do something about his feelings for her, without feeling he is hurting me. Should be better right? I really hope so. I want him happy so bad, its not working with me. I'm still hung up on the danny situation, so how can I truly say anything. I start school in 6 days, I cant wait till i can drown myself in school work again and forget my own middle name. I miss Connie, this is our holidays, and she is gone. I know if she was here with me, she would make me shut of my computer and give me a really long hug and let me cry as hard and as long as i needed to. I hate New Years...sorry about the vent. You all know how much this means to me. I think in about 2 weeks I'm ending my DA account. Not sure yet, maybe a little before the birthday.